Apne kamare(room) mai aa to gya pr maira(mera) sarir abhi bi kamp raha thaa dekha he kuch aisa thaa

Abhi bi meri ankhon k samne ma kaa nanga jism nazar aa raha thaa

Aisa lag raha thaa ki feaver aa gya hain to mai chup chap bed pr let gya or jaise he ankh band krta ma kaa jism fir se ankhon k samne aa jata

Kafi der ayese he leta raha or kab ankh lafi pata nahee chala

Ankh khuli ma ki awaz se aa gya hain to khana kha le

pr meri himmat nahee hue ma kaa smana krne ki to mene koi jawab nahee diya


or jb ma ne dwar(door) khola to mai sone ki acting krne laga

To ma ne bi uthane ki koshish nahee ki

pr mai samajh nahee pa raha thaa ki ma kaa samna kese krunga

Sham koo mai maa(माँ) koo bina bataye ghr se bahar chala gya or raat koo aya

yeh soch kr ki ma so gai hongi rahul koo utha lunga pr mai darwaje pr khada hoo kr Rahul koo call krne wala thaa achanak se door khul gya

To samne ma khadi thi to mene nazar jhuka li

or chup chap andar aa gya


Piche se ma yeh wakt hain ghr aane kaa
To mene fir se koi jawab nahee diya

Ma table pr khana rakha hain kha lena or bartan sink mai rakh dena

or ma apne kamare(room) mai chali gai to mene Rahat ki sans li

or khana khane k baad apne kamare(room) mai aa gya

Issi trah kuch or din nikle pr meri himmat nahee hue ma k samne jane ki

pr ha in dino mai itna huaa ki ma k nange jism ki kalna krke masterbating sikh gya

or ma koo soch kr discharge hota
or baad mai aatmgilani hoti yeh soch kr ki meri ma hain vo

Har baar yeh he sochta or agli baar fir ma ki soch k masterbate krta

iss trah kuch ghante to mai ma koo bhul jata pr kuch ghante baad fir se ma koo he sochne lagta  

Issi trah kuch din or nikle or mai apni life mai busy hoo gya pr ma SE bahoot Kam BAAT krta or jitna hoo sake utna due rehta

yeh ma koo ehsash thaa iss liye vo bi Kuch nahee bolti thi

pr ab meri roj ki habit pad gai thi ma koo Soch kr Mutthi Marne ki

Kehte hain na aadat wahi

pr bhagya hum logon k hath mai nahee hain

Ek din ma k mobile pr Nani kaa phone Aya ki nana ji bimar hain to ml jaa

To ma ghabra gai or papa koo call ki
pr papa koo leave nahee mili to urgent hain to Aman koo le jao

Ma ne apne ap he mana kr Diya ki vo nahee Jayega mere sath shayad unhe bi pata thaa kyu ki mai jb itne Dino SE ignore kr Raha hu to ayese kaiise unke sath akele jaa Sakta hu

To. Rahul koo Bola to Uske paper the iss liye usne mana kr Diya

To ma ki ankhon mai Ansu aa gye koi mat jao mai khud chali jati hu

Jyada SE jyada kya Hoga late hoo jayega mere papa hain na tum logon koo kya

or meri traf Dekh kr unki ankhon SE Ansu beh rahe the

To mai dheere se Kaha packing kr lo abhi niklenge to bss mil Jayegi 10 wali or subah tak gaon

Ma such bol raha hain na Tu

mai: ha ma mai chalta hu Rona band kro

To ma ne zaldi SE apne Ansu poche or packing suru kr Di packing mai kya thaa urgency mai jaa rahe the

Do Jodi kapde ma ne rakhe or 2 he mai or hum papa k aane k baad isbt Anand Vihar pahuche

or bss terminal pr pahuch k ticket li or bss kaa wait krne lage  

mene auto mai bi ma SE BAAT nahee ki thi or ma bi Kuch nahee boli
or bss terminal pr bi nahee

jb bss aane kaa wakt hoo gya to mene ek half litre limca or orange ki toffi li or apni ki bottle

or ma k pass aa k unko de Diya or hum bss mai chad gye or apni seat pr baith gye

Bua ac sleeper class thi
With curtains

To ma koo window side bithaya or mai dusri seat pr baith gya samne wali pr joo apni nahee thi

Ma mere koo dekhne lagi
bss koo chalne mai wakt thaa to mai niche Jane laga

To
Ma zaruri hain Jana Kabhi bi bss chal sakti hain
To mai Kuch nahee Bola tabhi conductor Aya to bua shuruaat hoo gai to mai apni seat pr matlab ma k bagal wali seat pr. Baith gya

hmari double wali seat thi


bss dheere dheere apne destination ki traf chal Di

Hame up k auriya Jana thaa
or waha SE ek Chota SA gaon adampur


To hame ghr pahuch ne mai subah k 8 bajne wale the

Thodi Der hum ayese Chup chap baithe rahe
mene apne ear peace nikale or song sunne laga

muze pata nahee kab ma ne awaz Di

mai sun nahee paya to ma ne mere kaan SE ear peace khich Diye .

To mai unko dekhne laga....

Ma sunai nahee deta kya

mai kya huaa ma

Ma ki ankhon mai Ansu the

mai kya huaa ma

Ma kab tak

mai mai samjha nahee ma

Ma kab tak ignore krega muze

mai ma ki ankhon mai dekhne laga