Episode 73

Shikha maatra 18 year ki thi jb uski shaadi Ravi se huyi thi. Ravi, Sunil babu k badi behan, Gauri, kaa chhota beta thaa. Ravi apne bade bhai Raman se 5 year chhota thaa. Gauri or Avinash ne apne dono beton ki shaadi 22-23 ki umar mai karadi thi. Bada ladka Raman 22 ki umar mai 20 year ki Karuna k saath vaivahik jivan mai bandh gyaa thaa, or Ravi kaa vivah Shikha se tab huaa jb woh 23 kaa hoo gyaa. Karuna bilkul paramparik bahu thi, halanki Shikha k kaafi saare aakankshayein thi. Chhote shehar ki hone ki wajah se woh 18 ki umar mai apne maata-pita ne chune huye ladke se shaadi karne k liye raazi toh hoo gyi, halanki usne padhai sampoorna karne ki ichcha bi shaadi k pahle hi Ravi or apne hone wale saas-sasur Gauri or Avinash koo vyakt ki thi. Ravi koo Shikha ki mahatvakanksha kaa aadar thaa. Usne bi Shikha koo shaadi k 5 year baad tak padhai or aage medical poora karne ki poori choot di. Isiliye Avinash raisahab k ghr mai pota-poti k pahle do paalne Raman or Karuna k bachche Amar or Seema k liye hile. jb tak Ravi or Shikha kaa pehla beta Rahul huaa, Seema usse 3 year badi thi or Amar 8. Shikha ne apne doosre bete Deepak koo Rahul k 5 year baad janam diya.

Apne sohar se mile sahyog koo Shikha kabhi nahin bhooli. Aaj joo woh ek badi gynaecologist thi, usme Ravi kaa bada yogdan thaa. Shaadi k shuruati saalon mai Ravi k prati samman kab dheere dheere pyaar mai badal gyaa yeh Shikha khud bi nahin samajh paayi. Unn shuruati dinon mai jethani Karuna k irshya or taanon se nipatne mai bi Ravi ne uska saath diya thaa. Woh toh Deepak k paida hone k do year pahle, Raman ki badli America mai hoo gyi or use parivarsahit sthanantarit hona pada, warna jethani-daurani ki ladaai-jhagde mai saayad Gauri-Avinash k ghr kaa chain nasht hoo jaata. tab se Raman-Karuna or unke bachche bss khaas maukon pr apne vatan or ghr laut-te. Isiliye Aryan or Rohit ki pehchaan Amar or Seema se utni kabhi nahin huyi, jitna gehra unka sambhand Rahul or Deepak se huaa. jb kabhi chhutiyon mai Sunil babu, Aryan or Rohit koo unke bua Gauri k yahan chhod aate, toh yeh do bhai or woh do bhai khoob hungama karte. or unke sang rehti thi, shaitaani ladkon mai utsahi khubsurat khiladi ladki... Sapna.

Sapna ek anaath thi jise Gauri ne god liya thaa. Raman or uska family tab tak USA jaa chuka thaa, halanki unhe bi jb yeh samachar(news) mili ki lagbhag 60 ki umar mai Gauri ne ek navjaat shishu koo god liya hain toh woh achambe mai pad gaye. or sabse bada goodh toh yeh thaa k Sapna koo god lene se Gauri or Avinash k 40 year k rishte mai bi khataas aa gyi thi. Avinash Gauri k nirnay se bilkul sehmat nahin the, parantu ghr kaa shishthachar aisa thaa k kabhi Raman ya Ravi ne apne maata-pita se is vishay pr khulkar baat nahin ki.

year guzarte gaye, or Sapna is ghr kaa hissa hokar bi asadasya ki tarah ban kar reh gyi. Rahul or Deepak uske saath khelte-padhte, halanki unhe bi yeh ehsaas hone laga thaa k unke maa(माँ)-dad or dada Sapna k prati ajnabi sa vyavhar karte hai. Toh sahaj roop se woh bi Sapna k saath apniyata se kam pesh aane lage. Aryan or Rohit unke zyaada kareebi the, or naa ki Sapna. Gauri bi kabhi kabhi Sapna k sang ajeeb tareeke se pesh aati, jaise k Sapna koo dekh uske saath judi koi badgumaan yaad hoo jisse woh vichalit hoo jaati.

halanki Sapna bi alag mijaaz ki ladki thi. Kam umar mai usmein is prakar ki pragyata thi ki woh sab cheezon koo or vyavharon koo dekhkar bi use apne utsah pr kaale badal banne nahin deti thi. Kyonki woh bhitar se itni tez or diler thi, toh uski bahari khoobsurati bi kamaal ki thi. Youvan aarambh hote hi Sapna manohari ban chuki thi. or yeh baat kishore umar k Rahul or Rohit se bi chhupi nahin thi. Ab bachchon wale khel mai, Rahul or Rohit mauke ki talaash mai hote the k kab woh kapat se Sapna koo sparsh kare. Sapna inn harakaton se anjaan nahin thi, balki use garv thaa ladkon pr padta apne is prabhav pr. or woh khud kaa khyal rakh sake itni saksham bi thi. Aryan koo magar Rahul or Rohit kaa vyavhar behadh bhadda or nindneeya lagta thaa. Usne kai baar is baat kaa apni maa(माँ) Nandini se khulkar charcha karna bi socha, magar fir kahi woh swayam apne varjit rishte pr sandeh na lene lage, is baat se ghabrakar use chhod deta.

or aaj, usi varjit rishte kaa anjaam Nandini apne kokh mai paal rahi thi. Nandini ne zahir hain, Shikha se yeh baat chupayi ki uske pet mai bachcha Aryan kaa hain. Usne Shikha koo jaise taise samjhakar is baat ki anumati li koo woh Sunil babu koo yeh samachar(news) khud se ghr jaakar sunayegi. Teen asafal garbhavasthaon k baad is anapekshit garbhavastha koo gambhirta se vichar karna zaroori thaa, yeh kehkar Nandini Shikha k dispensary se nikal gyi.   Episode 74

“Kya huaa hain, Nandini? Tum kuch bataogi bi!”

Nandini kisi buth ki tarah bhaavheen baithi thi. Sunil babu k sabr kaa bi ant hoo raha thaa. Unhone Nandini k kaandhon koo zoro se pakadkar use hilaya.

“Clinic se lekar ghr tak k safar mai tumne kuch kaha nahin… ghr aakar batati hoon keh diya. Ab jb ghr aa gaye hai, toh bi maun rakha huaa hain. Neeche Aryan or Rohit bi pareshan hain, or meri bechaini kaa tum andaza bi nahin laga sakti. Aisa kya huaa hain? Kuch batati kyon nahin Nandini!”

Nandini ne Sunil babu k haathon koo ekdum se pakad liya or use apne gale pr rakh cheekh padi.

“Maar dijiye muze! Jaan se maar dijiye muze! Gala ghot dijiye maira(mera)!”

Nandini yeh kehkar phoot phoot kr rone lagi.

“Maar daaliye muze… mar jaana chahiye muze…”

Sunil babu or hairaan hoo gaye Nandini k is vyavhar se. Unhone apne haathon koo Nandini k gale se dheela kr use apne aaghosh mai liya.

“Kya huaa mere bete koo? muze batao Nandini… akele se mat joojho.”

Sunil babu Nandini k maathe pr pyaar bhara chumban rakhne gaye, jb Nandini ne unhe dhakka lagakar apne se alag kiya.

“mai is pyaar k laayak nahin hoon, swami… mai ghruna k kaabil hoon…”

Nandini ne apne kohniyon koo apne ghutnon pr rakh kr apne sar koo apne haathon mai chupaya or roti rahi. Sunil babu khud koo lachar paa rahe the. Woh Nandini koo aisi awastha mai dekh nahin sakte the, or kyonki unhe kuch pata nahin chal raha thaa isiliye woh or kasht mai the. Sunil babu k aankhon mai bi ab aansoo aa gaye or unki aawaz kapkapane lagi.

“Nandini… maira(mera) heart(Dil) bahoot kamzor hain… please muze batao kya huaa hain. Nahin toh mai Shikha koo phone kr pooch leta hoon… kyonki mujhse ab or raha nahin jaa raha.”

Nandini ne ekdum se apna chehra upar kiya.

“Nahin, nahin… Shikha koo call mat kijiye.”

Sunil babu- “Toh fir muze batao kya huaa hain? Aisa kya pata chala clinic mai joo tum is kadr khinn or udaas hoo gyi hoo?”

Nandini ne jb Sunil babu k aankhon mai aansoo dekha toh woh bhavuk hokar unse lipat gyi.

“mai… mai… mai garbhvati hoon.”

Yeh kehkar Nandini Sunil babu k seene mai apna chehra chupakar fir se rone lagi. Sunil babu ne Nandini k baalon mai apna haath phera, or use shaant karne lage.

“Sshhhh… sshhhh… koi nahin… koi nahin… ayese nahin rote betaji.”

Nandini ne rote rote apna sar Sunil babu k seene se upar kiya. Woh ab bi magar Sunil babu ki nazron se nazrein nahin mila rahi thi.

“Aap samajh nahin rahe…”

Sunil babu- “mai samajhta hoon Nandini… tumhare andar muze santaan dene ki bhavana hamesha se rahi hain, halanki taqdeer ne joo hamare saath mazaak kiya hain usse mere shukranu tumhare andon koo kabhi garbhavastha k samapan tak nahin pahuncha payenge…”

Nandini ab khud uljhan mai pad gyi.

“mai kuch samjhi nahin…”

Sunil babu- “Matlab k tum bina sankoch is bachche koo girado.”

Sunil babu ki ghoshna se Nandini sunn hoo gyi. Halaki woh khud bi is vikalp koo man mai atal karne ki jung lad rahi thi, halanki Sunil babu kaa use ayese thos reet se keh dene se woh thandi pad gyi.

Sunil babu- “mai jaanta hoon k tumhe yakeen thaa k tumhare stanpan ki wajah se tum fir se maa(माँ) nahin banogi... yeh tumhara vishwas thaa, halanki is kaa risk toh thaa. or ab maira(mera) bachcha apni kokh mai paalna bi toh risk hi hain. mai magar tumhe khone kaa risk nahin le sakta.”

Nandini ki aankhen(eye) badi hoo gyi. Use ab bodh huaa koo Sunil babu koo ab bi poori baat pata nahin chali thi, or woh kisi galatfaimi mai the. Usne apna sar hilaya or fir se rote huye spashtata dene lagi.

“Aap wrong samajh rahe hai swami… yeh… yeh…”

Nandini fir se zoron se rone lagi or bistar k bal girkar usne apna chehra takiye mai chupaya. Sunil babu Nandini k bagal mai jaakar jhuk gaye or apne haath koo unhone Nandini k kamar pr rakha. is pal mai bi Nandini kaa maansal badan kitna makhkhan ki tarah mulayam hain iska gaur Sunil babu ne kiya.

“Khulkar kaho beta… Kya tum yeh bachcha rakhna chahti hoo? Tum jaanti hoo doctor ne pichli baar kya kaha thaa… Mere bachche ki maa(माँ) banna tumhare liye khatre se khaali nahin hain…”

Nandini ne apna chehra Sunil babu k taraf moda, or aansoo bhare aankhon se woh sharamsaar aawaz mai bol padi,

“Yeh aapka bachcha nahin hain… Yeh Aryan kaa hain.”

Sunil babu bistar pr uthkar baith gaye. Nandini unke kadmon mai girkar rone lagi.

“Ab samjhe aap mai kitni charitraheen hoon… isiliye keh rahi thi k maar dijiye muze… Maar dijiye muze… Maar dijiye…”

Sunil babu kaafi der tak bss darwaja kahi dekhte rahe. Ek haath se Nandini k baalon koo sehlakar woh kisi gehri soch mai kho gaye the. Kuch der baad ek gehri saans lekar unhone Nandini koo uthne koo kaha.

“muze sab batao… tumhe kese yakeen hain k yeh… yeh bachcha Aryan kaa hain?”

Nandini bi ab thodi shaant hoo gyi thi. Usne Shikha k clinic mai joo kuch huaa uska lekha-jokha Sunil babu koo diya. jb baat khatam hone koo aayi, toh Nandini fir se rone lagi. Sunil babu ne Nandini koo apne paas kheecha or uske gale pr or gaalon pr choomne lage. Nandini unke ayese vyavhar se chakit hoo gyi, or unke shakti k saamne pighal bi gyi.

“Nahin swami… mai is pyaar k laayak nahee hoon… aap jaise devta samaan…”

Sunil babu ne Nandini k honthon pr apne honth rakh diye or use zor se choomkar use chup karaya. Sunil babu kaa chumban is kadr joshila thaa k Nandini ki choochiyon se doodh risne laga or pregnancy bra koo bhigone laga. jb chumban toota, toh Nandini bhavuk hoo gyi thi.

“kese itna pyaar kr sakte hai aap mujhse?”

Sunil babu- “Tumhara yeh sawal poochna mere pyaar ki avmaanna hain.”

Nandini- “Magar… yeh jaankar bi ki mai apne hi bete se garbhvati hoo gyi hoon…”

Sunil babu- “Uss bete se jisse mene tumhari shaadi karwayi hain or jiske saath k jismani rishte koo mene na keval(only) manzoori di hain balki uksakar banaya bi hain. Ab sambhog kaa anjaam toh garbhavastha hota hain, iss mai ashcharya kis baat kaa hain? Bekaar mai khud koo apraadhi mat thehrao Nandini.”

Nandini- “Aap sach mai mahapurush hai. Aap nahin jaante aapne kitna bada bojh uthaya hain mere seene pr se.”

Sunil babu- “Tumhare seene pr toh humesha tumhare dudharu thanon kaa bojh rahega Nandini.”

Nandini- “Aap bi na… kabhi bi shararati hoo jaate hai.”

Sunil babu- “or tum joo kabhi bi bekar mai emotional hoo jaati hoo, uska kya? Waise theek hain… pregnancy mai auratein emotional hoo jaati hai.”

Nandini- “bss, garbhpaat kara loon… fir theek hoo jaungi.”

Sunil babu- “Garbhpaat! Woh kyon karogi bhala tum?”

Ab Nandini kaa hairaan hone kaa time aa gyaa thaa.

“Kya matlab?”

Sunil babu- “Matlab ki yeh bachcha toh Aryan kaa hain… toh fir is garbhavastha koo anjaam tak le jaane mai tumhe koi risk nahin.”

Nandini- “Aap kya keh rahe hai? Aap chahte hai k mai…”

Sunil babu- “mai chahta hoon k tum muze santaan do Nandini. Woh bachcha Aryan kaa huaa toh kya huaa.”

Nandini kaa sar ab chakrane laga thaa.  

Dear Satyat,
Firstly... I enjoyed your kahani... lekin i find it iss more like a novelish thing... And nothing against your style... lekin my personal opinion iss like this...
I find it hard to get good erection ... coz of the lengthy post... The real core of the post has to be digged out... And you हा e super patience... Like huge posts... Anyways... You must focus on the details of breastfeeding and related acts instead of justifying the structure of the kahani... To make it realistic... Its ok if sometimes there iss less of a realistic touch and more of what can be termed as wild expectations...
Hope you will take it positively and not as an offence... Thank you